TRANSFORMATION TUESDAY ALERT‼ On this very day last year, I was in the hospital going through chemo round #3. I was mentally and physically convinced that this particular round was going to kill me. I was losing hope by the second; I was so sad and miserable leaving my family every two weeks for six days straight to share a hospital room with a complete stranger as the doctors tore me down by way of chemotherapy.
My feelings were so hurt, because I went to the restroom this morning to shower and wiped my eyebrows all the way off, which I didn’t even know was possible. I couldn’t recognize myself and looking in the mirror hurt the inner depth of my soul, because I didn’t know the woman that was reflecting back at me. I was able to stop throwing up for about two minutes to capture this moment in the hopes that I could look back someday and smile of what God brought me through. So on this very day, I am able to say that my prayers have come true.
Many of you, to this day, still have no idea of how much cancer tore me down as a person, broke my soul, and turned my faith all the way upside down as I went through my darkest hours. I am so thankful to look back and smile today in pure joy as tears roll down my face seeing exactly how far God has brought me. Cancer changed my LIFE! Cancer saved my soul! Cancer was destined for me to take me out of my comfort zone and force me into pure faith! Who would have known that the person who plans everything would have to sit back and follow Gods plans whole heartedly, HA!
Sharing my story was the hardest thing I’ve done in life, because who truly likes to show their bad side? Seeing my bravery to be so transparent proves my growth as a woman. I don’t share these things for anyone to feel sorry for me in anyway, Cancer was truly Gods plan for my life! I share this for my fellow fighters who are going through the battle of their lives to give hope that there will be better days ahead. GOD IS ABLE!Â
Shaneè Wilson
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Shanee’ Look at God. I am waiting on your book to come in time. May God continue to Bless you and your family. You are a living Testimony.